A Twinge Of Regret

Johns Hopkins hospital

I recently returned from a wonderful pediatric conference at Johns Hopkins. In addition to experiencing the joy of learning about new research findings, I also experienced the not-so-joyful “what ifs.”

You see, when I was a young pup, Johns Hopkins was my dream medical school. But as anyone who’s put him or herself through college knows, when the bucks aren’t there, neither are you.

Don’t get me wrong, my in-state school was great, and our clinical training was top-notch. Thanks to a low number of residents with whom to compete, we medical students got the opportunity to first-assist on surgeries, deliver babies, and work one-on-one with attendings.

But at the same time, primary care was pedaled like cough syrup. As such, I never realized my love of research until only a short time ago.

Which is what led to my case of “what if.”

But hey, at least I bought a mug…

JH mug 2


Enough about me. Is there something you wanted to pursue but couldn’t? Or for those who don’t want to think too hard (it’s Monday, after all), what was the last mug you bought?

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Rubin4Carrie Rubin is the author of The Seneca Scourgea medical thriller. For full bio, click here.

295 Responses to “A Twinge Of Regret”

  1. butimbeautiful

    Pity about John Hopkins. Here you can, at the moment, study wherever you want – but there’s a debt waiting for you as soon as your income hits a certain level after graduation. The conservative Aussie govt has just deregulated fees though, so debt levels will shortly be going through the roof – my daughter is worried. As for ‘what if’ – I sometimes wonder if I’d studied writing or journalism would I be in a different place – but I would have loathed being a rookie journalist when I was a shy backward 18 year old.


    • Carrie Rubin

      Yes, I don’t think I could’ve been a journalist when I was younger either. Tough job for an introvert!


  2. Gail

    I think I would have made a good lawyer. I tend to probe, am determined to uncover the truth and often advocate for others. During a career break, I explored paths to pursue a paralegal career. Then I was told that many paralegal jobs are filled by law students who didn’t pass the bar. That turned me off.


    • Carrie Rubin

      Well, it’s never too late to pursue law school… And with your desire to probe and uncover the truth, then you can later go into politics. We need more people like that!


  3. paywindow7

    I too had a “young pup” fixation. Mine was to go to Alaska and be a bush pilot. The whys and where-fors are much to wordy to explain here. But over my life that dream never went away. Then many years later I was driving down a country road past a small rural airport when I slammed on the brakes and stopped dead in the middle (rural road so no other traffic) of it then drove inside, found an old flight instructor and started flying lessons. It was all I had ever expected it to be and much more. Long story short three years later I happened to be in Alaska, rented a plane and as I lifted off I had to laugh out loud. I never thought about it before today but I wonder if there’s a mug for that.


    • Carrie Rubin

      How cool that you made it a reality! I can’t imagine a much prettier place to take flying lessons. Alaska is gorgeous. And I’m sure there are plenty of mugs there–but probably not quite that specific.🙂

      Thanks for reading and commenting!


  4. Carol Balawyder

    Mugs are really special. Right now I’m drinking tea from a mug a colleague once gave me and I always think of her when i use that mug. I also have an faded Emily Carr mug and my favorite is one with tulips which I bought in Ottawa during the tulip festival years ago.🙂


  5. 2bcreativeblog

    I think I have made it a career of going to school!🙂 I began as an Architect student and still want to complete it whether I use it or not just so I can finish. I then changed to Graphic Design and am so close but once again have not finished. I hear you on the money funds. It makes it difficult when they are not there.

    I sadly can not remember the last mug I bought. Nice mug and you have a gift for writing!🙂


    • Carrie Rubin

      Thank you! I’m enjoying my mug, and I’ve gotten over my wee bit of angst now that I’ve returned from Hopkins.🙂

      Graphic design–that’s really cool. I wish you well should you go back and finish the degree. Thanks for reading and commenting!


  6. benzeknees

    I regret not trying to get scholarship money to go to university right after high school. My parents couldn’t afford to pay for me & by the time I was finished high school I was pretty fed up with school, so I went to work. A few years later I really regretted it & went to university at night school, but babies & husbands got in the way of my degree.


    • Carrie Rubin

      That happens, doesn’t it? We put off having kids until I was done my training, because I couldn’t imagine working those hours with kids. But the downside was, we were older. I kind of envy those couples whose kids have left the roost while the parents are still in their forties.🙂 (Not that I want my kids gone, but you know what I mean!)


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